its whatever.

So, I am absolutely sick of people. Seriously... I have no patience whatsoever for anyone. If you dont want me to go to events, just say it. Don't have people tell me to go and then all of a sudden change your mind. I just don't care anymore. Sorry I don't walk on water like some people. Screw it. Seriously.

Bry and I are doing alright, I guess. We have been in a big fight and he knows what its about. I am done caring as much as I do for people to like me. I changed myself for people and thats just dumb. WHO CARES IF I HAVE BLACK HAIR NOW!!!!!!!! ITS NOT YOUR HAIR DONT FREAKING COMMENT ON IT!!! WHO CARES IF MY BELLY BUTTON IS PIERCED, THAT I WANT TATTOOS, DOES IT REALLY MATTER TO YOU??? NO, it shouldnt. it really really shouldnt. My body has NOTHING to do with yours. I don't comment on you, so don't comment on me. Whatever.

Mr. Doug Ingalls passed away this past weekend and I am shocked and saddened by this. He was my aunts good friend, they were in a lot of plays together. He was my sisters drama coach for many years, and he was my teacher in high school. Now, I may not have known him as well as many people but it doesn't mean that I didn't care about him as much as they did. He got me through a lot. My grandmother had a heart attack and I had failed to visit her due to my selfishness. (I don't like visiting family in hospital, it freaks me out and I get nervous). He made me realize that I was being selfish and may not have another opportunity to say I love you, or to show that I love her. He was a great guy and I will never forget him.
Plus he was hilarious, he told me to "stop flirting with Andy" - I wasn't, I swear but it was a very funny moment.
He told me that I "write like a guy" I don't have girly handwriting, he would know he was an english teacher he saw a lot of writing. But, I still don't write like a girl.
He told so many wonderful stories of his trips to England, his "fanny pack" story.. ask me about it some time. Though I will not do it justice like he did, I will do my best trying. I think that he was a little upset that I never did theatre, I was in one play and though I enjoyed it and didn't get a big role like my sister, I had a blast. And let me tell you, I was the best crazy bride in the insane asylum that there will ever be. (=
RIP DOUG INGALLS- Always in my heart, always in my prayers- you helped many get through tough situations and you were a wonderful man-