Christmas is over

Well, Christmas is over! It was a good Christmas! I got lots of wonderful gifts from everyone-- so thank you! I got a Chargers Snuggie! YAY!
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas as welll!
I just had a very low key Christmas- which isn't how I generally like it. I like seeing family and spending time.
Christmas Eve I had to work 8-2. So, I worked and left and went home. I wasn't able to sleep very well the night before so I ended up sleeping away the rest of Christmas Eve. It wasn't too good. I feel really bad that I slept!
Next day: Christmas day! Woke up at 8, and then we go and open our stockings. I got a lot of wonderful surprises in there!
Then, we go into the living room and open up our gifts. It goes youngest to oldest- Mike, me then Beth. We all got lots and lots of gifts! So many things!
Then, we open up our gifts from each other. So, I went first because I NEVER go first. It was from my brother and it was a brown dress, it was really nice of him. It is really cute. I am totally wearing it with my brown uggs.
The my sister opened up her gift from him.
Then, Mike opened up my gift to him: an american eagle long sleeved shirt.
and my sister opened up her gift from me: penguin pajama shorts and a purple tank top
Then, My brother and I open up our gifts from my sister. I got 2 shirts from American Eagle. They are really cute! I wore it last night actually.
The best person ever got me shirts from one of my faaaaaaavorite movies ever: The Nightmare Before Christmas. I have been wearing them non stop. I love them. It was so thoughtful (:
Then my parents open up their gifts from us: My dad got a very nice shirt from me so he wore it that day and wouldn't you know he SPILLED SOMETHING ALL OVER IT! I was SOOOOO angry!!! My mom got pajama pants, body wash, and this little snowman that hums. She is obsessed with snowmen fyi and if you ever come to our house it looks like Christmas threw up. No joke. Well, usually it does. This year it doesn't because of family things. But, maybe next year it will look like it.

So, Christmas is over. What comes next for me? New Years Eve. What will my New Years Resolution be...? Maybe to saaaave some money!

Happpy Holidayys !
Love, Me.

Family Christmas party O'Brien side!

Today we had a family Christmas party at my Aunt Cathy's and Uncle Jack's house. Everyone showed up! wild.
here was the guest list.
Grandma Carol and Grandpa John,
Aunt Deb and Uncle Ralph
Their 5 kids: Jake, Josh, Adam, Annabelle, and Amelia
Aunt Marie and Uncle Kevin
Their 2 kids: Conor and Julia
My cousin Katie and her husband Brett
My cousin Sean and his girlfriend Ashley and her daughter Rhyan
My cousin Amy and her boyfriend Mike
My Aunt Cindy and her boyfriend Jim
My mom and dad
My sister my brother and me.

lotssss of people. crazy irish family.

This year Amy and I were included in the "adult" portion of the party. Instead of doing secret people like every other year they decided to do a yankee swap and OMG was it funny.
People trading with people for gifts they didn't want. Hilarious. I ended up with the gift that I brought (because I had a plan all along and it worked). It was a hot chocolate set with 2 mugs, cocoa mix, marshmellows and a little wisk to stir it with and then a thing of ferrero rochers.
well, i am not keeping the hot chocolate set because I don't drink hot chocolate so guess who I am giving it to (:
BUT i am so keeping my ferrero rochers. yum. only chocolate I really eat.
I hung out with my younger cousins mostly and Ashley's daughter Rhyan. She was SO cute (rhyan)


my cousin and i


scary brett


cute amelia


i am so excited and in the christmas spirit. its the season to be jolly (:
so please everyone, be happy. Don't let anything or anyone ruin your Christmas. Know that someone will always be there for you no matter what. And that even the smallest of wishes generally do come true if you want it bad enough. So, enjoy the season and may all of your Christmas wishes come true!

funny ness.

Dizzle

I did this last year or the year before... It is soooo silly!!!

Wrapping Gifts

Christmas 2009 is coming up! Less than a week! Yayyy!
So, since I am the "spirit of Christmas", I am getting ready for it. Usually, I wrap as I buy gifts. This year, I waited until now. And I dislike myself for that. I spent over an hour wrapping gifts.
Here is something you may or may not know about me. I love spoiling people. Seriously, I love buying people gifts and knowing that what I got them will be used, that it is being enjoyed. I do not ever expect anything in return and usually do not ever want anything in return.
I don't want to come off as sounding "wealthy", because personally, I really am not. However, come Christmastime I am generally given a lot. And, I am very grateful for my family being able to do so. These are not things that I "need", but extras. I try to ask for things that I need, or think that I need atleast... So, when I give people gifts I do not expect anything in return. In fact, I generally prefer it that way.
My favorite thing to do during the holiday season is to pick a name at my church of a child who is less fortunate than most and buy them gifts. That, to me, is what Christmas is all about. It isn't about getting what you want, or giving to those who already have a lot. In fact, I would prefer if instead of giving gifts to me, that the money going towards me would go to a child in need.
Also, I give gifts to Sherry's House for children with cancer.
I wasn't able to do that this year. Honestly, I forgot. When I remembered, I was very very very upset. The only thing left that I had to do was to send a card to a wounded soldier, and I am glad that I did. Hopefully what I wrote cheers him/her up.. I've been told I write funny things sometimes. (:
But, I really wish that I had remembered to give the kids christmas presents...

im a klutz.

I woke up this morning mad early (okay like 8:30) and I was ready for a good day! I got up, told myself I would be in a good mood, and marched towards the shower. It went fine until....... stupid soap got in the stupid shower flooor and i slipped backwards and hit my head on the stupid water spout thing. Obviously there were a lot of tears because of the pain.
So after maybe 5 minutes of just sitting there stunned and crying I decided I should probably shut the water off and get out of the shower. I didn't stand to get out, I crawled out because I was scared I would slip again.
So then we decided it would be best to call my doctor, etc etc. So called my Dr. and she had me come in because I could have a concussion. Really? I didn't realize that... (sarcastic). So, off we went to the doctors and I got checked out and she sent me to Umass Memorial to get my brain scanned. SO COOOOOOL.
So, obviously there was a nice wait to get that done. It is now about 12:30 and I am an angry girl. My head was spinning and dizzy and in a lot of pain still. They said that there was a "very slight concussion" and signs of previous head trauma. Reallly?? I have been pushed into a lot of walls and suffered some abuse over the years and it SHOULD have been read in my file. But people are idiots and don't read anything.
So basically they said to take it easy, to rest for a day or so.
BUTTTT I have to work today and tomorrow so looks like I can't rest up. Especially since my boss is gone this week. grrr.

thats where i am at. it hurts. i have work in an hour. i have cramps. i miss someone very important to me (hence the good mood this morning) i THOUGHT i would be able to see him. My day sucks now. I miss his cute face. grrrrr. now i can't seee him till MAYBE sunday night.. after 2 christmas parties. lameeee. well if you read this, i dont know if you will.. but i miss you.

Winter

Today definitly reminded me that it was winter time! It was soooooo cold! My car actually had a few issues starting up because it was not warm. sweeeeet.

Anywhoo- I hate the cold. I hate being cold. I literally cannot function if I am too cold. So, I am excited to say that I will be getting a new jacket for Christmas this year so I will be stylin AND warm! Cannot wait!

After Christmas, when it snows a bit more, I want to go to holden hills. I want to go hardcore sledding. Anyone down for some sledding?
I also reaaaallly wanna go ice skating. I took ice skating lessons and won 2 gold medals when I was younger. I haven't skated in years, but man, would I love to go back.

I am such a kid when it comes to snow. I am completely serious. I enjoy playing in it, having snow ball fights, making snow angels, skiing, snowboarding, sledding, ice skating.. everything! BUT the only thing that gets me is how cold the snow is. I literally become FROZEN.

Also, it doesn't help that I am a completely stubborn person so if I were to lose a glove or a boot or a hat or anything, it would be "too wet" to put back on. I would just continue on without my glove, or boot, or hat. I really can be stubborn.

Do you remember being a kid? Being stuck in those god-awful snowsuits, giannnnt jackets, ridiculous gloves, hats, and boots? Underneath that snowsuit was probably a sweatsuit. Your mother was probably the one that dressed you so you were nice and warm when you were outside. So, there you are ATTEMPTING to move outside and "play" in the snow when you really can't. Alll you wanna do is run and jump and play in that white fluffy stuff. But, you can't. Then, the enevitable happens and your boot falls off, your mitten falls off, etc and you either stay put until someone rescues you or you get up and continue playing. My sister was smart enough to stay put when that happened. I was the stubborn kid and continued playing and learned to hate the cold.

I think snow is pretty. I just think its a pain in the ass to shovel, to clean off a car, to do anything with it besides play in it. Who actually enjoys shoveling or cleaning off their car? I think that I belong someplace warm (: and I will just import snow for Christmas !

everything going on

This week I am CRAZZZZYY busy! As you know, my dad had a heart attack. Well, he hasn't been able to work. What have I been doing? I get to do MORE paperwork for his business. I have wanted to learn about it for years so I finally had a chance to help the family out. So, I am done with finals. YA! But, the rest of the week is crazy busy.
I have been working so hard because my boss took the week off for a vacation. Everyone really has been working hard, not just me. Anyway, I closed monday, closed tonight, I am working tomorrow, closing friday and closing saturday. AND sunday I have a work christmas party in the morning, and then a family christmas party at 12.
In between all of this I am finishing my christmas shopping and helping my dad out with his work.

I mailed my Christmas cards today. If you got one, you are special. If you don't, well it sucks to be you.


In even more exciting news: 5 days til Marissa and Will's baby is born! Soooo excited for you guys! I cannot wait!! I have to go to the post office sometime and mail them the baby clothes I bought. They don't know if they are having a boy or a girl yet, so I am sending both!

Christmastime?

It doesn't feel like Christmas time to me this year. Maybe because there have been soo many changes in my life.
You see, a lot of bad things have happened to me this year. In July, a very close friend passed away of Cancer.A very close family friend passed away from a heart attack as well. My grandmother had a heart attack, my other grandmother had stomach issues, my grandfather kept having ischemic strokes and my other grandfather lives in an assisted living apartment building and is having a lot of random health issues. On top of that, on November 6th my dad went into the hospital because he had a heart attack. He had a triple bypass the following monday. He is doing very well now. Honestly, I hate when people bring it up. Because I get so emotional over it and I don't like to generally show my emotions. I am very thankful that everything HAS gone well with him.
So, that is why it doesn't feel like Christmas. Nothing is normal around my house.. No lights on the outside of the house, we JUST put up green garland and lights around the banister. Our christmas tree is decorated but we didn't do it all together. Everyone is growing up and going their separate ways.

I want to take a minute to recognize someone who is very important in my life. My late great grandmother Dorothy Maxwell. She passed away in 1997. On Christmas. I was only 10 and rarely saw her because she lived in Syracuse, NY. But, she made such a big impact on my life.
My full name is Meghan Kathleen Sweeney. My other great grandmothers name was Kathleen Margaret. I was named after her, she died right before I was born. So, years go by and I get to know my other great grandmother, Dorothy. She would visit and bake soo many tasty treats with us. She would let me stay up late and we would watch Gone With the Wind. I never really understood at age 10 everything that was going on in the movie, all I knew was my kind great grandma was letting me stay up late to watch a grown up movie. It kind of was a bonding experience I suppose. Well, I remember Christmas morning, my mom getting a phone call from my Grandma Carol, great grandma had passed away. My mom was a wreck. She was very very close to my great grandma, they had a special bond between them. A few days go by and the whole family travels to Syracuse to the funeral. I don't remember much from it, all I remember is singing with my other cousins two songs. "Sweetly Sings the Donkey" (my great grandma would sing that to us) and "Silent Night". Today I can't listen to "Silent Night" without getting emotional. I remember singing. I remember the look on my parents faces, grandparents faces, aunts and uncles faces, distant relatives faces. They had tears so I had tears too. I didn't really know what I was crying about then, but I know what I was crying about now.
So, every Christmas eve, we would go to church and of course, "Silent Night" is sung. Every year on Christmas eve, you can bet that I have a few tears when I hear that song. I will quietly sing along, just enough so I can hear myself but no one else really can.
I love Christmas. I love the happy feeling that is all around. I love the music, the snow (i get sick of it fast though), I love to hand out gifts that I picked out especially for someone, I love the look of joy on my younger cousins faces when they open up their gifts at the family christmas party. They are the only reason why I still go. And for my grandma, because this family christmas party means a LOT to her.
So, Christmastime.. you need to come. I need to feel like its a normal Christmas this year. Why do things change? Why do people change and grow apart? Maybe this is a sign that I am growing up. Who knows. All I know is I am ready to sing along to "Silent Night" on Christmas Eve. And watch a few sheep and llamas get walked down the aisle at my cousins Christmas Pageant.

Never is a Promise

You'll never see the courage I know.
It's colors richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow-- the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you

but as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
the shades and shadows undulate in my perception
my feelings swell and stretch, i see from greater heights
i understand what i am still too proud to mention, to you.

you'll say you understand, but you dont understand
you'll say you'd never give up seeng eye to eye
but never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

you'll never touch these things that i hold
the skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
you'll never feel the heat of this soul
my fever burns me deeper than i have ever shown-- to you

you'll say don't fear your dreams, its easier than it seems
you'll say you will never let me fall from hopes so high
but never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

you'll never live the life that i live
i'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
you'll neve hear the message i give
you'll say it looks as though i might give up this fight

but as the scenery grows i see in different lights
the shades and shadows undulate in my perception
my feelings swell and stretch i see from greater heights
i realize what i am now too smart to mention-- to you

you'll say you understand, you'll never understand
i'll say i'll never wake up knowing how or why
i dont know what to believe in, you don't know who i am
you'll say i need appeasing when i start to cry
but never is a promise and i'll never need a lie.

~~~

this song means a lot to me.

forever and always

once upon a time, i believe it was a tuesday when i caught your eye
and we caught onto something, i hold on to the night
you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me.
Were you just kidding?

cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
we almost never speak. i don't feel welcome anymore
baby what happened please tell me because one second
it was perfect now your halfway out the door

and i stare at the phone he still hasn't called
and you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when he said forever and always

and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
it rains when your here and it rains when your gone
i was there when you said forever and always

was i out of line? did i say something way too honest
make you run and hide, like a scared little boy
i looked into your eyes, and i knew you for a minute
now, im not so sure

so heres to everything, coming down to nothing.
heres to silence -- that cuts me to the core
where is this going? thought i knew for a minute
but i don't anymore

and i stare at the phone he still hasn't called
and then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when he said forever and always

oh and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
it rains when your here and it rains when your gone
cause i was there when you said forever and always
you didn't mean it baby, i don't think so.

oh back up, baby back up did you forget everything?
back up, baby back up did you forget everything?
back up baby back up, back up, baby back up

cause it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
it rains when your here and it rains when your gone
i was there when you said forever and always

oh i stare at the phone he still hasn't called
and you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when he said forever and always

and it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
it rains when your here and it rains when your gone
cause i was there when you said forever and always
you didn't mean it baby. you said forever and always.
~~~~


lyrics that mean a lot to me...

its been months

Hi... it has been months since I did this. My life has been crazy busy. So, last post I wrote that Kim would be an auntie- well the baby was born last friday morning! Marissa and Will just found out they were pregnant- well the baby is coming this monday! Crazy. Time flew by.
What have I been up to?

School! Major: Pre-Vet (probably changing back to Psychology..)
Work! I am still working at Papas making practically nothing for running that place.
Bryan and I broke up- long story.
But I found someone pretty wonderful after that. (:

I have so many goals right now its insane.
I need to organize my life.
I just need to organize myself.
I love A.D.D....

Basically my goals are: go sky diving (starting with indoor skydiving first to see if I like it), I want to go in a hot air balloon, I want to zipline through the tops of trees in Jamaicaa, I want to just live life- I want to be carefree. I want to be able to wake up everday with a smile and know that everything that day will be okay, that nothing can harm me or anyone else.

The more important ones: well, I want to go to Africa and work with children who are ill. Atleast for a few months. I want to eventually own my own boutique because my grandfather has always said I should. I want to work with animals, maybe just as a volunteer. I want to work with children somehow who need developmental help. I want to just be able to SMILE and help save someones life (ITS TRUE IT HAPPENS!)

People have always said that I will do good things in my life. This may be true, I may do good things, I may help people out, I may help out living creatures in general. But I want to help make a bigger impact on the world. I did think for a while that this could be done by just "touching" someone's life, making it better in some way. But, that would take forever. I still believe in my philosophy, I just need to figure out what my "calling" is.

Some of my friends want to be doctors, some of my friends want to be lawyers, some want to be teachers, while others want to be stay at home mothers. Each of these jobs, I think, are equally as important and equally affect the lives of others. For the LONGEST time I wanted to be a doctor, but a lot of obstacles got in my way. I will never claim to be the smartest girl. I surprise myself sometimes with the things that I "actually know". Useless information I learned in 7th grade will randomly come out of my mouth when people ask questions.

For a while I just have been living life. It's time that I step it up. I need to do better. I need to be a better person. I always thought things would "fall into place". Maybe I need to make it all happen.