its been months

Hi... it has been months since I did this. My life has been crazy busy. So, last post I wrote that Kim would be an auntie- well the baby was born last friday morning! Marissa and Will just found out they were pregnant- well the baby is coming this monday! Crazy. Time flew by.
What have I been up to?

School! Major: Pre-Vet (probably changing back to Psychology..)
Work! I am still working at Papas making practically nothing for running that place.
Bryan and I broke up- long story.
But I found someone pretty wonderful after that. (:

I have so many goals right now its insane.
I need to organize my life.
I just need to organize myself.
I love A.D.D....

Basically my goals are: go sky diving (starting with indoor skydiving first to see if I like it), I want to go in a hot air balloon, I want to zipline through the tops of trees in Jamaicaa, I want to just live life- I want to be carefree. I want to be able to wake up everday with a smile and know that everything that day will be okay, that nothing can harm me or anyone else.

The more important ones: well, I want to go to Africa and work with children who are ill. Atleast for a few months. I want to eventually own my own boutique because my grandfather has always said I should. I want to work with animals, maybe just as a volunteer. I want to work with children somehow who need developmental help. I want to just be able to SMILE and help save someones life (ITS TRUE IT HAPPENS!)

People have always said that I will do good things in my life. This may be true, I may do good things, I may help people out, I may help out living creatures in general. But I want to help make a bigger impact on the world. I did think for a while that this could be done by just "touching" someone's life, making it better in some way. But, that would take forever. I still believe in my philosophy, I just need to figure out what my "calling" is.

Some of my friends want to be doctors, some of my friends want to be lawyers, some want to be teachers, while others want to be stay at home mothers. Each of these jobs, I think, are equally as important and equally affect the lives of others. For the LONGEST time I wanted to be a doctor, but a lot of obstacles got in my way. I will never claim to be the smartest girl. I surprise myself sometimes with the things that I "actually know". Useless information I learned in 7th grade will randomly come out of my mouth when people ask questions.

For a while I just have been living life. It's time that I step it up. I need to do better. I need to be a better person. I always thought things would "fall into place". Maybe I need to make it all happen.